I’m starting to get a cold, but took Enbrel anyhow because I was starting to get so swollen and immobile. Stiff like the dead.
So it’s been 3 weeks since Jax and I split up. Now I’m in the anger phase of the grieving process. I’m so angry at Jax for so many things right now. Primarily, I’m angry that he insisted I NEED him-That he loves to be needed. So I let go of my fiercly independent ways and let myself need him. Of course I had no idea he would come to resent it.
So the pain of our split is evolving… But at least I know that these are deep issues of his more than my medical issues as he claimed. Maybe there is hope that someone else is out there for me…
Love Sasha xoxoxo