I’m taking a little break from my resource section I’m creating to talk a little bit about myself. Beyond being just Sasha, I’ve been stuck in this awful depression for almost 8 months or so. You see, I’m an extrovert – I love people. I thrive when I’m around a lot of people. I used to have a huge network of friends and colleagues. But when I got sick ad the years passed – 1,2,3 I lost almost all of them. A friendship can only thrive when 2 people are putting there all into it. I had no energy for myself, much less a friend. Over time I watched my relationship with Jax dissolve. He was always so helpful to me and very loving…but he couldn’t deal with knowing I was in pain. Even as a friend it’s hard for him to know I’m in pain. Is that what started the depression? Or did the pain start the depression? I guess it’s the story of the chicken and the egg.
Over the past year and a half I’ve been getting so much better in most areas. During this time I’ve taken a good hard look at my disease and come to realize that there were parts of it I was hanging on to. I know that’s so hard to explain. I do not want to be in pain nor do I want any disease at all. But there was a part of me that became familiar with that ill part of myself. I’ve been doing a lot of visualization exercises where I release the disease that has grabbed a hold of me. In a kind of meditation, I close my eyes and watch as I pull the tentacles off of my body – and breath in fresh, clean new air to fill in that part of me that might have chipped off. I grow back healthy cells that are not in the mood to fight my own self. Read on for more on Internet Dating with a Chronic Disease, Don’t drink the liquid warning for those with CP, Fentynl & Prednisone effects after 1 year. —> Read the rest of this entry »
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